Everything with you is about following, obeying, etc. You're so stuck on following what you like to believe is true that you are willing to say that MLK, Jr. was under Satan's power. If it was up to you to have made a stand, Black people would still be drinking from the colored people's water fountains and entering restaurants through the back door, and sitting in the back of the bus.
As for Yahweh, the correct pronunciation of the Israelite's diety, as God, this is merely one interpretation, resulting from one of the many, many groups of people in the world who, in the course of human history, have sought to explain existence, some way or somehow. There is no evidence for this one interpretation being true, neither of us has spoken to Yahweh or received a sign. In fact, the evidence points to the bible being plagiarized from other sources: code of Hammurabi (ten commandments), epic of Gilgamesh (Noah's flood), Greek and Roman legends (story of Bacchus (God of wine), for example), etc.
You believe because, as you stated in your post, you have been promised perfection and eternal life. What this says is that your selfishness, and fear, is being exploited as a way to bind you. This is why I say people like you live in a gilded cage. Belief is a good virtue, so long as it is based on logic and evidence. There is evidence that truth is supreme, there is a truth to how the Earth, and all that inhabits it, came to be, we just don't know it. Truth, if you cared to listen to it, would reveal to you that the JW organization is false. We've attempted to motivate you to be critical, which is a positive thing, but you won't/
I don't mind death, but I'm not depressed or suicidal. Death, to me, is beautiful, it means creation, it means there is an opportunity for that which is new and pure, and innocent, to come into existence. Death is not only physical, it's spiritual and psychological, all death can be positive. If you cannot die to having been an addict or a heartless person, how can you change? The baby who is full of innocence is free because he or she is new, uncorrupted. Death makes way for life comprehensive.
As for your organization, your own book says that Jesus is the way and the TRUTH, it says nothing of the JW organization being the way, the truth. The book also says that people must go through Christ, not you and your members.
As for truth, it is pathless: mundane as a walk through the park and as sacred as the Buddha fasting for months, for enlightenment's sake, and Jesus laying himself down for what he believed in. Truth is what was happening in Japan, when the Hebrews were dealing with Babylon and Rome, even though your God did not inspire the "prophets" to address this. Truth is what's taking place, right now, on the other side of the world, both the tragic and the beautiful.
I don't want anyone to follow me, I don't want to follow anyone either. If I could have what I wanted, it would be for people to be free of all psychological burdens, as well as those of the "heart." The answer is to become completely free, of tradition, culture, irrational belief, and return to our humanity. Only then can we begin to live together, so that paradise can be created on Earth, by its inhabitants, not invisible boogey men. We're insane and dysfunctional because we've lost our way, we've forgotten our humanity, as well as that of others. The way is truth, even if it hurts, lyfe.
